Nada de nada

This is well, impromptu.

I have not said much in a while. I don't know if i should be jovial about it. Does this mean I was so busy (hopefully productive)... that I was not able to steal a little time from my work? Then, I realized, this is so ironic. I feel so empty.

I have been in a maelstrom of emotions lately. I have to stomach the idiosyncracies of some people, including my own. I am so exhausted. I have been pondering about lots of things. But to those reading, I presume you also have to put up with this vague material.

I am just tired.

I know many of you felt this way. Sometimes it just makes you cry...intensely...sporadically... and uncontrollably.

Just like what I'm doing today. I am crying about what happened last night.

Last night, I came home from work feeling so down. My husband still needed to do overtime work so it was only me and my kid. We were about to sleep but she wanted to play. But please, help me, it was quite late. I told her no, and I think not in a nice way. Did I shout? I don't know anymore. I just told her I'm so tired and turned my back. Then I heard sniffling and a muffled voice saying " Sana andito si lola" repeatedly. Then I cried. I've never heard her cry like that. I usually hear her crying violently when she's physically hurt..but this was different. It's more of a grown up cry...sobbing...yet controlling what you really feel inside. She evn covered her face with a pillow...I hugged my daughter and we just cried. I told her I'm sorry I always go to work and leave her behind. I really wanted to play with her...

Then we made peace and she wanted to play with me again! Hah! I told her, "Pagod na talaga si Nanay."

Do you know what she did? Sabi niya..." Ay, sorry, sorry di sinasadya...Mahal yan. Mahal yan si Nanay." Then she sang me a lullaby! " Tulog na, tulog na si nanay ko...tulog na ang nanay ko. Mahal yan, mahal yan ni Danielle. Tulog na ang nanay..."

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I hope you learned something from this. I don't need anymore to explicitly get it across...

God bless us, parents and children, the same.

Guys' Rules daw

The Guys' Rules (not complete...natamad na ata ako...=)­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­...ang haba na)
>My comment/ Danielle’s

1. Men are NOT mind readers.
> Translation: Men are insensitive.
1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
> Guys don't need it up, do they? Isipin nyo na lang...sino ba ang magluluto?

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.
> Here in Manila, almost everyday, you have boxing events...talo pa telenovela. Buti pa nga telenovela...matagal pa rerun. Sa boxing, halos replay ng replay. Seriously speaking, ok lang naman sa akin ang boxing. EXCEPT!!!! Except...kapag nanonood din ang baby ko. NO violence kapag andyan siya, no wrestling, boxing, or even mga telenovelas. Kasi naman, mas barbaric pa nga sa wrestling ang ibang telenovelas ng Pinoy (buhusan ba naman ng asido, itulak sa hagdan, sabunutan sa putikan, etc)

1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.
> Ahmm..window-shopping pwede na? Hehe. Walang pambili...=)

1. Crying is blackmail.
> Bakit? You still don't give in...medyo lang.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!
> But when we do we speak, we are called "naggers". Kahit one word pa lang...pikon ang guys.

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
> Watch out for some actions that will help you know the answers...
...Smile means YES. Eye rolling means NO. Got that?

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
> Kaya pala noong nanliligaw pa lang kayo. Sabi niyo: I can lend you some ears…nge.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a Problem. See a doctor.

> Girl: Hi Just got back from the clinic.

Guy: So HOw was it? What’s the Cause?

Girl: The doctor said IT was you.

Guy: What, how, why did he say that?

Girl: he just asked me how long we’ve been together. i said 17 months. and he said…Oh, I see.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

>Kasi nakalimutan na nila…Bakit makakalimutin ang guys?

The following Rules I need the lines of my baby danielle:

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria 's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.

> Danielle: “ASUSSSSSS!”

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.

> Danielle:“ HINDI NAMAN….”
(kapag pinagsabihan siya na amoy pawis na siya sa kalalaro)

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of them makes you sad or angry, then we meant the other one

> Danielle: “ Ano talaga?”

1. You can either ask us to do something Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

> Danielle: “AYOKO, ikaw lang muna. di pa marunong ako. maliit pa ako eh.”
One time, pinapabuo niya lego...Ako yung nagbubuo, sasabihin nya kung saan ikakabit...kala ko ewan lang.tapos... nagmukhang kotse, minsan bahay, minsan mukhang ewan...yun pala...ipis daw!

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

> Translation: Men can’t do multiple tasks at the same time.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

> Danielle: “ASUS…ganun talaga yun? hindi naman”

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit.

We have no idea what mauve is.

> Danielle: “Ay, di mo alam? Bakit di mo alam? Nakalimutan mo?”

Tinanong niya minsan ano English ng muta (gummy eye secretion kaso one word meron ba? Napaisip tuloy ako…)…kapag nag-isip ka ng kaunti, sasabihin na niya yan… “Ay, di mo alam? Bakit di mo alam? Nakalimutan mo,ha?” tapos kalabit-kalabit pa sa balikat.Pang-asar talaga. Kapag totally di mo alam..sasabihin niya…”Aaah, di alam. Di alam pala.” Lalayo, tapos ikukwento pa sa unang makita..."Di niya alam muta"

My Tibak Blood

I think this is still familiar to you. I am so happy I recovered this. I composed the latter part about the impeachment(Erap's). My friend said she saw this on a newspaper at that time. Akala din niya forwarded message ko lang. Sabi ko, nya...ako gumawa non=) Ginawa ko kasing telenovela ang impeachment non. Yey! Narecover ko! (Wala naman sigurong mag-aatempt na ikulong ako no?)

WHY DID THE CHICKEN CROSS THE ROAD?

KINDERGARTEN TEACHER: To get to the other side.

CAPTAIN JAMES T. KIRK: To boldly go where no chicken has gone before.

SIGMUND FREUD: The fact that you are at all concerned that the chicken crossed the road reveals your underlying sexual insecurity.

BILL GATES: I will soon release the new Chicken Office 2002, which will not only cross roads, but will lay eggs, file your important documents, and balance your checkbook.

CHARLES DARWIN: Chickens, over great periods of time, have been naturally selected and evolved over time in such a way that they are now genetically endowed with the capabilities required to cross roads.

RALPH WALDO EMERSON: The chicken did not cross the road. It transcended it.

BILL CLINTON: I did not, repeat, did not have sexual relations with the chicken.

ERAP: Ang media ang may kasalanan diyan!

MIRIAM DEFENSOR-SANTIAGO: " Aha! I know it! That chicken crossed the road to provoke me. I move to permanently hold in contempt that chicken. I request for a restraining order, your honor, so that the chicken would not be able to cross the road again!"

RAMON REVILLA: "I concur, your honor. You see, may timbangan ako ng manok sa bahay. Doon ko nga nalaman na 96 grams ang 1000 na bills ng 1000 pesos to make 1 million pesos. See 96 grams? 96 grams talaga! Malapit yun sa isang kilo...eh sa 96 grams talaga eh...Pero huwag nyo akong tanungin kung ilang kilo ang manok na nagcross ng road. Eh, di ko nakilo eh. I guess, takot syang pakilo. Baka kulang sya ng 96grams. In short, kulang sya ng isang kilo."

EMMA LIM: Para po uminom ng iced tea, your honor!

CHAVIT SINGSON: Eh, nililito nyo lang po ako, your honor. Di ko alam kung bakit nagcross yun ng road. Wala naman sa ledger ko kung bakit. Nililito nyo lang po ako. Nililito nyo lang po talaga ako.

CLARISSA OCAMPO: It crossed the road to go to the office of, I am sorry, Mr. Estelito Mendoza.

ESTELITO MENDOZA: Whether I will quit as a defense lawyer of the president or not, shall depend upon the decision of the president himself, not the crossing of the road by the chicken.

RAUL ROCO: It is a noble profession to be a chicken and to cross that road!

CHIEF JUSTICE HILARIO DAVIDE: Unless there is an objection, the chicken can cross that road. [end]

After searching the net to find it, nakita ko siya sa: http://members.tripod.com/~bethong/erap34.htm

Pisay jokes

Filipino Vocabulary

IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THIS, YOU ARE NOT A TRUE FILIPINO!

1. Use TENACIOUS in a sentence.
   I went to the shoe store to buy a pair of TENACIOUS.
2. Use DEDUCT, DEFENSE, DEFEAT,and DETAIL in a sentence.
   DEDUCT jumped over DEFENSE,first DEFEAT and then DETAIL.
3. Use DEPOSIT in a sentence.
   I hear dripping in the sink. I think DEPOSIT is leaking.
4. Use PERSUADING in a sentence.
   Jack and Jill got married on June 1, 1997. So on June 1, 1998, they are going to celebrate their PERSUADING anniversary.
5. Use DEVASTATION in a sentence.
   Every morning I wait for the bus at DEVASTATION.
6. Use IRAQ, IRAN, and EGYPT in a sentence.
   IRAQ is bigger than a stone. IRAN faster than my friend. EGYPT is smaller than a truck.
7. Use PAUL four times in a sentence.
   PAUL, be carePAUL, before you PAUL in the PAUL.
8. Use CUISINE in a sentence.
   I hope you studied last night because our teacher might give a CUISINE math.
9. Use PAMPERS and PAPERS in a sentence.
   At the gas station, some people PAMPERS and some PAPERS.
10. Use SCHOOLING in a sentence.
    Ring, ring.....Hello? Who SCHOOLING?
11. Use TOENAIL in a sentence
    To get to Kaneohe, you must go through Wilson Toenail.
12. Use PENIS in a sentence.
    Before my boy go outside and play, I tell him to penis his homework.
13. Use EMPIRE in a sentence.
    Ready! EMPIRE!!!
14. Use DEFICIT in a sentence.
    When I go to the pool, I check out how DEFICIT.
15. Use HOSTESS in a sentence.
    Hello? Hello? HOSTESS?!

e-Hawaii productions: Lokal Kine Jokes [web page]
http://www.e-hawaii.com/fun/jokes/fvocabulary.htm.[Accessed 29 Mar 2007].


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Nakakamiss yung sa Pisay na tatambay either canteen, backlob, frontlob or while strolling.
Tapos, imbento ng mga salita at walang nagpapatalo...
Kunwari sasabihin ng isa..

"Naku nagQUIZ kami sa Algeb."
"QUIZ? Di ba yun yong nilalagay sa pandesal na palaman?"
"Aah mali ka dyan, yan yung nilalagay sa QUIZhole..."

"Nya...Hindi no, yun yong pag nagmamadali ka(with matching actions), tatakbo ka ng very QUIZ."
"Alam ko kasi yun yong sinisindihan pag new year..yung QUIZZes."
"Ay naku, stop it. Tigil na. I QUIZ."
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May time naman na ang hilig nating magdelete ng words! I mean, letters lang ang sinasabi...as if nagkakaintindihan tayo??? Minsan oo. Pero minsan...hilarious ang effects.

1st roommate said...

"Grabe, nakita ko si C(crush) kasama si G(girl)
Tuloy naA ako(asar) kay G(girl)
As in sobrang H(hate)"

2nd roommate thought...

"Grabe nakita ko si C(someone's name that starts with C) kasama si G(GREEN...usually colors ang codenames ng girls sa crush nila)
Tuloy naA(arouse) ako kay G(GREEN)
As in sobrang H( hot)."

"As in A ka kay G(with matching hilakbot sabi ni 2nd roommate)???

"OO no. A na A. (1st)"

Pero magkakaintindihan din naman sila don't worry pag dumating ang point na di na sila magkaintindihan...Ikukwento na ng buo ang lahat. Well, ganon kami sa girls' dorm.=)

niña

Yey! nandito na si baby ko.
Sinundo ko sa Batangas yesterday.

Sabi ko...
"Hi, baby...(kiss). Namiss mo ko?"
"Opo, nanay"
"Mahal mo ba si nanay?"
"Opo."
"Bakit mo mahal si nanay?"
"Eh kasi mahal kita eh"
"Bakit?"
"Hindi ko alam basta mahal kita"

Aaaayyyy....
Nakakaloko na no?

Pwede ng magpaiyak ng lalaki. DUH! hehe.

Unsaid, Unsaid.

...I miss those hot days under the sun....=(

silent leaves kissing my lips
whispering nothing, nothing.
and the blowing of the wind, ever so silent
tunes quite unheard, unheard.
the grass I use as my bed
doesn't even whimper, whimper.
and the smoke in my eyes
never tried flowing, flowing
and the waiting cheeks
still dry, still dry.
but I know I've cried a thousand times
or maybe even more, even more
or I may just be crazy
cause I don't know,I don't know.
have you just been a dream all along?
but you felt so true, so true.
I'm sorry, I fell in love with you.
I thought I won't, I won't.
but I did and ...goodbye.
but both...unsaid,unsaid.

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Bridges and waters below

My friend, we cross this bridge of Comfort
everyday
and each day, I notice,
raging waters below,
posing as calm, starts to rise...
while you, just crossing the bridge as usual
laughing and talking about shells and stones
and strings and her.
and while you're caught in the Comfort
or total bliss of Nothingness and Uncaring,
I... caught in the total bliss of your
Nearness.
but Silence almost always finds us. She
wraps us in her arms, and the bridge,
sometimes feels longer than before,
because, below my own bridge, I notice,
raging waters,
posing as calm, starts to rise
So please---
"Don't look down."

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These poems I dedicated for someone whom I loved for 6-7 years. We usually walk going to our next class. Kaso bigla na lang akong nawala. Di na ako nakikisabay... iniwasan ko siya. Naiinlove na kasi ako sa kanya. Natakot akong mahalata niya. Nahihiya ako.

He should have been a bestfriend. He could have loved me...

Asa pa!

I am just here to romanticize unrequited love. Ok lang marami naman kami. Kasi crush ng bayan yun.

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Alam na niya ngayon or 5 years ago..hehe.

This is one of my greatest achievements...
How? I asked him for advice.
I told him that I have this relationship with a guy ...that exact relationship I had with him...kausap, kasama,kakwentuhan,kaibigan...Syempre with all the blushing, I told him how much I loved him. I told him everything so that he can expertly guide me. I told him that he may be the only one that could and have the right to advise me. My question, that time was...Should I walk away or should I stay? The dilemma is by staying it seems that I'm fooling him because I'm falling for him. I don't want him to think that I'm using our friendship for my gain. That being near him makes me happy and my day complete...(*blushing*)...That was why when I became close to you...I decided to walk away. I don't like to cheat you.

Sabi niya?

"Stay."
"Ha?Ulit?"
"Stay...at least you know where it'll lead. If it's mere friendship...then it's just that. If he gets angry. Fine. At least you know where you'll start again. Or else...you will be pondering about it endlessly ."


Siyempre kinuwento ko to sa mga taong crush din siya. At yun lang ang iniintay nila...

Sabi tuloy nila...
"Aaaayyyy...(the kind of Aaaayyyy na ...wow,that is so sweet, that is exactly what i want to hear or what I am hoping for him to say)"
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Ginawa ko ba? Yes. I stayed. It was good that I stayed. Kasi I found out that he is not yet the man for me. I just developed a platonic feeling over him. Parang kapatid. If I walked away again, until this time, I might still be infatuated with the idea of "what ifs , unrequited love, etc"... Buti na lang hindi. Hehe....At least one question answered. =)
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I walked away,
I stayed,
Now, I'm staying...

for R*** R***** F********

The Wanderer

I walked barefooted rubbing each gravel of granite with blood
Just to know if I could still feel
I was careful not too see the Sunset
because Time's entwined with goodbyes
as dark curtains heightened my fears
of finding more about pain,
You.
numbness.
it entered me for my blood has dried
quenched earth's thirst for company
and now.I am free...to seek other sunsets
to whisper more goodbyes
to clouds.to seas.to crystals in my eyes.
till dried...and wounds healed for new.
I will see more of you.
dead and still---loved.

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This is my own poem posted at www.poetry.com

This is for my crush when I was in College. Cute siya. Mukha siyang backstreet boy. Lagi ko siyang nakakasabay pumasok sa school every Tuesday/Friday. Magaling magswim. One of the best in UP kahit freshman pa lang siya. Aminado mga kakilala kong Atenista na high school pa lang sila tinatalo na niya sila.

Then, he died.

Unknown reason. Nagkasakit na lang tapos daw gumaling naman. Excited pumasok...kaso nagising na di na makabangon...and a day or a few days after, wala na.

Naiyak kaya ako noon. Sabi ng guy na blockmate ko...
"Bakit? Di mo naman siya nakilala."
"Iyon na nga yun."

Wala pa akong pera non. Ang lahat-lahat ng naipon ko noon ay P300. Kasi stipends ko binibigay ko sa nanay ko...Yun lang natitipid ko pag di maglalunch...Gusto kong pumunta noon sa burol niya at ibigay sa mga magulang niya ang tatlong dadaanin...

Kaso hindi ko nagawa. I was a complete stranger. Hindi nila maiintindihan.

So one day, I just wrote this poem. Ito na lang inalay ko for him.
(I know my husband won't mind, he has lots. Besides, our daughter is a living poem!)
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This is a metaphor for all the crushes I had before.
Nung time na akala ko you cannot forget.
Ganon pala talaga yun...parang sa sassy girl...makakalimutan mo lahat...pag may dumating na bago.

Sa mga next posts na lang yun... haba na.